update

Wow, I haven't posted anything in forever. That's lame.
In the last week Jay and I crashed a car, don't ask. He had a blood vessel in his head punctured...or something like that. Anyways, there was internal bleeding in his head and he's had like 5 surgeries since not last wednesday but the wednesday before that. He was in a comma for 5 days and then he woke up and then the bleeding got worse and he went back into a comma but now he's back awake. phew. The doctors want to put him in an induced comma so he can heal faster but he won't let them. He's scared he won't wake up again, he's having trouble sleeping too.
Um....Scott overdosssed. He killed himself. How lame. This time it's a lot easier to deal with because with danny and the rest of my friend they didn't have a choice. It was a car accident or something like that. Scott did have a choice and he took the easy way out. I think he's a pansie for that. I mean we've all delt with this shit, not just him, it's stupid and selfish and such a weak thing to do. Wow, I didn't know how mad I was. hummm.
Besides all that I've just been going to school and stuff. I got a part in the school play, the "prompter" how lame. Whatever.
I need a job. badly.
I can't decide whether to take ROP fire science this year or next year. I definently want to be in shape before I start that program. My dad saw them working out on a Marine corps friday, as apposed to a five mile friday, and they were doing push ups while being sprayed by a fire hose. Sounds challenging and fun. I want to take it so bad but if I wait another year I'll have a job right after graduation if I decide to be a fireman or I'll be already in shape for the Marines or whatever military I decide on. Mom wants me to go with Air Force. Alright, that's it.

school's started

*moves math book out of way*
Good grief, school has started. I want summer back..no i dont' nevermind. My birthday is in a couple of days! i'm so freakin physed! it's awesome! oh, back to school, my neck's out from carrying my books but whatever. I like most of my classes and almost all of the guys...i mean people...lol in them. Totally kidding, I only like one..maybe two...guys. Ok, I'm going to go chill with Jay.

Last day of summer

Ah the last day of summer. I have done nothing today, besides getting up at 8am! Yeah, it's amazing, I know. Hopefully I'll sleep tonight. I have to get a few classes changed but I think that will be pretty easy. Colin said he has drama, which means we have it together, so that should be fun. Uhm...the only other person I know I have a class with is Kara, we have english together. Fun fun! Last night I stayed up till...1am? I think...yeah, so I went to bed pretty early. I was hoping that I'd get up and go for a run at seven but I didn't wake up until eight and even then I didn't really feel like going for a run. I'm such a lazy ass. Oh! dude, I got spaghetti in a can for my lunch! Yeah, it's awesome, I know. I can't eat it in class though, which is pretty lame. I don't know if any of my teachers let people eat in class yet though. I don't really care either. Ok, that's it, nothing really new today. Later.

What I Want for My Birthday

"Hey, Heath, I was just calling to find out what you wanted for your birthday. Ight, hope you're good. lates." - Carl

Carl, dude, you've known me forever, i should think that you'd know what I wanted. Whatever, I'll tell you what I want and I'll do it bluntly, cause "thats how (I) do".
What you can't get me but I still want.
1. My parents to get along.
2. To be able to make and put up youtube videos.
3. How about some freedom.
4. (Carl knows what goes here)
What you can get me.
1. Money
2. dude, how about a winnie the pooh paint set! Pachow!
3. A puppy, a boxer or something big and short haired. (My parents might not approve but I'll love it)
4. A Lupe Fiasco cd

Figure it out! You idiot!

Swimming & Back to school

I was supposed to be camping right now but instead I'm doing this. We couldn't get a camp spot. We're going up to the lake tomorrow though. I'm probably going to swim the whole time because i love swimming. You know how people talk about when they play their favorite sport they block out everything else and they only think about what they're doing. That's what happens when i'm swimming. It's like I stop thinking about the guys and whatever trouble they're in and everything and i just focus on where i'm going and how fast I can get there. Anyways, that's what I'll be doing tomorrow hopefully. Wednesday school starts and I don't have annnnyyythinnnnggg ready. I still have to get notebooks and cloths and stuff. It's making me anxious.

Swimming and biking.

The past three days have been nothing but physical activity for yours truly. Saturday was my brother's birthday which was awesome. My mom took my little brother and sister and i kayaking while the birthday brother stayed home with dad. It was so much fun. I swam like three miles at least and then I treaded water for like half and hour waiting for my mom and them to figure whatever they were doing out. (I was 50 ft away just hanging out treading water) Then sunday I went to puppets and we didn't rock so much but then I went kayaking again and swam even more. So I probably swam like 5 miles at least this weekend and then today I biked down to Carolynn's house and hung out there for a while. Yeah, that was fun.

My sixteenth birthday is in 27 days and normally by now i would have some idea of what i was doing or have it all planned out. However, this time my friend, Carl, decided he was throwing a surprise thing. He told me not to plan anything and he had to tell me it was because he was planning something in order to get me to not plan anything. Now, i totally regret that. I have no clue who knows and who doesn't besides Carl and Carolynn, I know they're in cahoots. I don't know how he's going to invite all of my friends or at least the important ones cause he doesn't know all of them....maybe i should give him a list. I know, i know, i'm controlling. With all the craziness that's going on in my life right now i need to have something to distract me! I have way too many racing thoughts and fricken conversations with people in my head. I think i'm loosing it! Today I was trying to do the dishes and everyone in my family was walking around me and i felt like i couldn't breath, not figuratively, literally, could not get air into my lungs. It wasn't fun. Anyways, i'm going to go, not because it's 2:48am and i need to go to sleep but because i want to do something else with my time like have a conversation with one of my friends in my fricken head!


Hey carl what are you planning for my birthday? oh not much heath. well thats great cause i'm loosing it.